Okay, I have to write this before I change my mind or talk myself out of it..... I think it's time to find Faran a new home. I don't like to write about negative stuff on the blog, so this probably feels like it's coming out of the blue for you guys, but I promise it isn't. I feel uncomfortable even writing about this because I got slammed by someone for selling my goats (because I couldn't afford to take care of them anymore due to my husband's injury and job loss), but I have to tell you guys.
I mentioned that Faran and I do not get along recently, but I've been too busy to sit and write a post explaining why. The main reason is because our personalities just don't mesh at all. If you've been around horses long I'm sure you've met a horse before that you just didn't get along well with. I'm a very unpredictable, fast moving, bouncing all over the place kind of person and Faran is a very reactive (more like downright explosive) and sensitive. So just walking around him, reaching up to pull my hair out of my eyes, tripping over my own feet (happens more than you would believe lol) all sets him off. And when I say sets him off I mean he EXPLODES!!! I was going to get a video to show you, but the weather has been atrocious. I can stand eight feet away from him and hop up and down (not even waving my arms) and he will spook and gallop away. He moves so quickly we call it teleporting... I'm dead serious.
The other thing that I never mentioned is that Faran kicked me in the head.... it wasn't his fault. I was medicating a sore and I should have been facing the other way. He reached up to kick flies and when he brought his hoof back down he got me square in the head. Yeah I know I should have been more careful, but I'm used to working with Chrome (yes I'm aware he's a horse and could hurt me too). I didn't blame him for that happening (oh and I'm fine, didn't have to go to the ER or anything, just had some swelling), but it has caused me to not trust him anymore.... Faran is easily 1600lbs of complete and total scaredy cat and when something scares him he will run away even if you are between him and freedom.... he will just plow right over you.
I thought we could make a difference and at first we did. He responds beautifully to clicker training and was getting a lot more confident, but the explosiveness has never gone away no matter how much we worked with him. I don't know if it's from when he was abused or if he's always had an explosive personality. The problem is that he needs consistent work every single day and we just don't have the time. I'm too afraid (and I hate to admit that) to work with him by myself and my husband is too busy with work and building our new home. It's only been a few weeks since we've been too busy to mess with him and he has totally reverted back to his previous scaredy cat self...... I'm also afraid he's going to hurt my husband.....
We had our trimmer out on Saturday and we couldn't even catch Faran!!! He followed Chrome into the round pen and my husband almost had the halter on him when Faran exploded past/through him and almost knocked him down. I can't risk my husband hurting his back again.... it's not an option. If he's not careful he will have to have surgery on his back.... as much as we love Faran we can't risk him hurting one of us.
So as much as I hate to admit it and as much of a failure as I feel right now because I honestly thought we could rehab him..... I really think rehoming him is the best and safest option. He needs someone who has the time and patience to work with him every single day to win his confidence back. I really hope you guys understand.... I know I don't need your permission, but I'd feel awful if you guys thought I was making the wrong decision....
Another thing I noticed as I've been thinking things over is that Faran is affecting the whole herd.... I had Zeppelin to where I could scratch him all over his face, side and back before we got Faran and now I can barely even touch his nose. Part of that is not having the time to mess with him, but part of it is because Faran is so jumpy. When Faran spooks (which is all the time) it scares Zep too. When Chrome was Zep's role model he was a lot calmer and more inquisitive towards us, but now he doesn't want anything to do with us. That makes me sad because I really like Zep.... his personality is more like Chrome's. He's just skittish because he wasn't handled for the first three years of his life.
Anyway.... I'll definitely keep you guys up to date. We're not doing anything rash. We're looking around and researching everything. I think we're going to go with a draft rescue. They will work with him, evaluate him to see if he would ever be adoptable and if he's not they will retire him there and keep him for the rest of his life. Anyway I'll let you know what we decide as soon as I know something. Thanks for listening!